10 THINGS TO DO

 

                  I dnt knw wht made me do dis….bt I hve dis inane fetish for livin my life TO THE FULLEST…include all the possible thrills…all d unimaginable adventures…do all things…whch I CANNOT or COULDN’T do…(for whatever reasons)…

I, for one, have always made a mental list...a recce of sorts…of things I would DEFINITELY…at all costs….want to do nd fulfill in ma life…

Lol….but with time I realized its growin by d day….d list I mean…eeeessssshhhh.

So here I am,makin a note….of things I wud like to do...b4 I meet my end (oh…hw cynical I hve bcme)

 

1. Earn so much in life…dat I take my parents to a trip abroad…at my OWN ability.
2. Get married to someone so eligible…dat I, for all my life think…”Damn..dis was my best choice…ever..” …hehehee….
3. Go to New Zealand for a looonnngg looonnng holiday………
4. Go scuba diving…para-gliding…..snorkellin…(damn…do ne given thrill)…wid my  beau.
5. Also….wud  just lurveee  to dance on snow-clad peaks….eeesshhh..a la yash chopra muvie...heehee
6. Have a HUUGGEEE…SPACIOUS....”home”....predominantly in white haan.
7. Have a pet dog….d cutest breed.
8. Go to sleep everynite wid a HUGE,LIFE-SIZED TEDDY….. 
9. Pull up my room curtains….openin to a sea-view……my my….
10. ONCE…just ONCE.....travel to outer space….and see my OWN wonderful planet...frm outside it.

P.S:- there might be further additons..lolz.

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA.

Breaking free

There are times when silence becomes golden,

There are times when we yearn for moments stolen.

There are times v blve evry word is true

There are times we wish v never fall through.

 

For all the tears now dried.

For all the tears v ever cried.

For all the things that remained unsaid

Those were the times…my heard bled.

 

Strange are the ways of r heart.

It connects us tho v’re apart.

U hurt a heart with much disdain.

And it wont dare to love you again.

These are the times our hearts refrain.

 

From all the wilderness of our mind.

And all the sorrows thus entwined.

We find a voice in a soothing sway…

Coercing us to hereby stay…

Amidst all the fading strength and hope,

We hear a push to help us cope..

 

I wish to smilingly go along,

Without a sense of right or wrong,

Trudge on d way humming a song,

For these are the times…I craved all life long.

 

ADIOS...

PRATYUSHA

GOOD WILL HUNTING

“I ask you a simple question and you will stumble..

And that simple question is what you want to do in life”.

                                                                   ---ROBBIE WILLIAMS.

Its not evryday dat u come across a movie that sets u in a wonderment...I, for one, have been too clumsy off late to get 0ff this orkut mood n do something really constructive...unless of course u define wht ur definition of CONSTRUCTIVE is......It was sheer luck dat i stumbled upon this movie that i was dying to see for quite a while.....It goes by d name GOOD WILL HUNTING.

Ok.. m nt here to give out d entire story....but man....dis muvie really made me sit back n THINK...

Its strange how dis quest for 'what do v really want' makes up for sme really gr8 chapters of r lives :-)  Its stranger as to HOW some people stumble upon their answers....as shown in dis muv.

Its strangest when they find out WHAT their answer to dis million dollar question is....wht MATT DAMONs character (Will) does in dis movie...is probably very very very very UNREAL to say the least......bt for someone like me who has always (nd will always) blve in d LARGER THAN LIFE canvas....dis seems amusing and at d same---heartening!!!

though itz quite difficult to take a decision as weird as WILL does in real life...specially when u hving been gifted by SUPER-HUMAN intelligence...and an unbelievingly precise PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY.........he gives it all up for something MOST people would (thinkin demselves 2b sane enuf) find foolish and utter rubbish...bt i guess it takes an enormous amount of character strength and soul searching.

D monologue between Robbie Williams nd Matt Damon is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.....it left me spell bound...the dialogues scream 'DEPTH'....ders not much i can say on dis since SEEING IS BELIEVIN...tho itz one helluva muvie highly recommended to all.

"Loss occurs when you love something more than yourself".

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA.

Miss all of 'em :)

Days of crawlin on four limbs,

Smiling a toothless grin.

Days when silence was a sin,

Days of a house full of din.

From mama's milk to cerelac,

From turning dad a horse,

To breakin his back.

Those days wont come by.

Days of my school books,

Eyes with innocent looks.

Gangin up wid frnds,

Playin pranks no end.

Days wid all their lows n highs,

Those days wont come by.

Days of that first crush,

Their first electric touch.

Life's most memorable story,

becomes life's most painful cry.

Those days wont come by.

We live each minute.

But dunno how many lives.

We rarely hug anyone.

And bid a lotta byes.

Somehow i came to blve,

'Tis in this NOW dat we live.

Say 'M back' 

Or at least try.

'Coz these days wont come by.

Luv n Luc.

PRATYUSHA.

Grain by grain,

Slip the sands of time.

Here I stand…

In the hands of turbulence…sublime.

 

Am a mere spectator.

As I watch things slip by..

See people biddin me good-bye.

Coz for all we care…

Is to move away from despair.

 

Trivial though it may seem..

Its tough to live a dream

When d dreams u wished for to come true.

But cried hard to bid adieu.

 

I stare endlessly..

Stretch out for a breath of fresh air.

And rule out doings unfair.

 

I see a world of new beginnings

Words of new meanings.

And I see no more

Coz it’s a world we wish to see.

And it’s door..HAS OPENED FOR ME.

here i go again...

There's something going wrong...drastically wrong.A game of fate,or a game played by someone.Nonetheless, its me at the recieving end of it all....

At this point of time in my life....THIS VERY MOMENT......makes me feel vulnerable....naked, exposed...looks lik m being dragged n pushed in d middle if a mob....all tryin to get at my neck.

Things which felt so reassuring at all the dull moments...hve taken a turnin...n how!! they seem bleak,torturous and scary! Its lik...im in a crowd...baskin in some of d most pleasurable company of people and probably hvin a marvellous time....n then.........................................POOF!!! 

knock knock...a reality check ma'am.Here it goes again....d same ol rigmarole of drama...that surge of emotions......that whirlpool of exhaustion suckin al ur comfort frm within....

Gotta give this time a break.this phase its freedom.To let it BE.Sometimes thats what is needed..The permission to let u hve ur own...guess even my life needs it now...a new lease of life!

Will be back with a bang...without doubts...hope that day's not too distant.

Adios..

PRATYUSHA.

Someplace

I saw that place.

Those sprawling landscapes.

Birds fluttering past.

For a lifetime they last.

You heard ‘em too?

Are they too good to be true?

It’s a place I wish to share with you.

Take me there too.

 

That morning mist,

My cheeks they kiss.

That seductive breeze,

Those buzzing bees,

Under the vast blue,

Take me there too.

 

I saw the clouds drawing a thing,

On the wet canvas.

It was a sight to see.

The raindrops singing gleefully.

I wish to feel the dew,

Take me there too.

 

‘Tis somewhere that I wish to go.

Lost in the woods.

And nothing to woe.

Cry…but none to see.

Dance...but  none to heed.

None...except me n you,

Please Take me there too.

-----Pratyusha.

 

quote a quote

hehehehehehehe...just when i was cribbing to attend my beloved subject's exam today...Here it goes....this pleasing lil piece of news fell into my ears**smileys**....yup..i hve no exam today..n im lovin it...no more CAO tortures..no more more hang-ups of not perfomin well*who cares*yipeeee**smile smile**...bt all good things come to an end*sigh*..d worst part??gotta study for tomorrow...eesshhh!!kya karen bhai! izzat ka sawwal hai! ohh one very interesting thingie...nandini ma'am asked me n nee2 abt v being mallus, durin our "unofficial" vivas.After a loooonggg session of pleading guilty for not knowin a word of CAO..makin sad, innocent faces,those me_so_goody_two_shoes expressions...she finally let us off with a stern warning((stern???n nandini ma'am?? shiverrrrs))**giggle gigggle** ..n now comes the cake*hehe* "Do you know bengalis and malayalis are supposed to be very good in studies??" she quipped...***hehehehehehahahahahuhooohohohummmm***

Now till i can help myself from laughin this hard... :D

Adios

PRATYUSHA.

P.S:-nandini ma'am is a bong..lol..hehehe

For the love to be reborn.

No one clearly remembers

When did it all start.

For me to forget is too hard.

Nor does one bother when

now dat it has come to an end.

But the scars remain for all they care.

So does the pain...leavin me in despair.

You did what you had to.

You took me for a ride.

But God forbid if u have to.

Go through wht I hide.

Never did u feel,

Never did u know,

My dreams u had broken,

Had left me pretty low.

You broke me up.

You left me dry,

Its strange that I still try..

To have you in my arms.

To have you in my life.

But now that ur gone.

All I can wish..Is for the love to be reborn!

pushing myself to hold a book!

Its exam time and i am having the hell of this phase.essshhhh!!! Cant even neatly get myself to pick up a book.Forget trying to sustain it and not to even think of having to absorb the contents....ufffffff.... Computer Architecture and Organisation a.k.a CAO..d question bank (or watever is it dat i have in ma hand) says "xplain booth's algorithm of multiplication process" "desribe CPU organisation and operation" "compare RISC and SISC"**puke**.....gaaaawdddd....sm1 pls get me outta this......Called up nee2 to ask her whts at her end...CAO again..not d least bit surprised...Im gonna have a horrible time makin efforts to live up to ma chosen field..not dat i regret it one bit**wink**wink** Some very elderly family member once remarked-i clearly remember-only the beginnings are tough--yeah yeah..as if beginnings always symbolize End*???* essshhh again!!! How plain innocent, uncles are, nahi?**wink** given a chance the worst possible tortural punishment i could ever give someone, is 4yrs of mumbai university engineering*lolz*...Hmmmm...so now have to force ma a#$ outta this chair n get it to ma study table or else....but fate has written itself already...**sigh**

Adios.

PRATYUSHA.

changing preferences...

Ahaaa…quite a loooong looong time since my last post huh!? Life has itz own way of seeking attention..  Quite an attractive entity I should say!.. ha.. Although being an engineering student you couldn’t care less about life and all…Itz been pretty good till now…just for d neat exceptions of exams…those gruelling schedules of submissions, assignments, presentations, projects.. u name dem.. we’ve done ‘em!! One saving grace from all this clutter (or so it seems) was this one to-die-for movie.. A LOT LIKE LOVE… aaahhhhh… sets ma pulse racing…for thousand miles no end…And this, for the 3^rd time in a month… my my!!.. never before had I been hooked on to HBO, STAR MOVIES, or even zee studios.. itz always been plain desi for me… but this one takes the cake!.. this set ma fetish for GOOD, watchable angrezi movies(no American-pies for me!)*wink**wink* Pursuit of Happyness, Sleepless in Seattle, A lot like love, n d works.. m lovin it.. rewindin to a mushy, candy-floss movie appetite (d sweetness is gonna take a toll someday *wink**wink*) so this makes a change (and all so worth it)..so till then I flip d news pages for another dekko at d NOW-SHOWING list..

 

Adios.

PRATYUSHA.

LIFE....

Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all of the days of your life.Do not give up when you still have something to give.Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Do not be afraid to encounter risks.It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find.The quickest way to receive love is to give love.The fastest way to lose love is too hold it too tightly.In addition, the best way to keep love is to give it wings

Do not dismiss your dreams.To be without dreams is to be without hope.To be without hope is to be without purpose.Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going.

Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

       Adios.

                                                       PRATYUSHA