A legend lives on...

Today's probably his last tryst with humans. He has had enough already. Quite a few run-ins (with the wrong side of law) and quite a few mis-happs. But then it suits just perfect for the kinda persona he witheld--larger than life.

Micheal Jackson's "They-dont-really-care-about-us" was the very first foriegn voice that fell on my ears at the tender age of, i guess, 10. I hadnt realy heard much of him since then coz the i couldnt quite understand the firangi accent **eeesshh** But that ws until i saw the legendary THRILLER and Black or white.

Do not have much to say about him... Its all beyond words honestly. In a day and age where i can only see half a dozen nude "popstars" ruling the roost with their talent (or the lack of it).... HE stood out. HE really did. With power comes great responsibilty. And HE sure knew his. Black or White proves that. As does Heal The World.

Sorry earthlings, as the curtains come closing tonight, its a sad fact we need to accept.

There can be no other, worth enough....to match even his fingernail :)

Adios.

PRATYUSHA.

BLANK

lol......wat now???

i mean i really hve nothing to write....not as yet...

***zzzzzzzzzzzz***

 These are some pointers, I wished to compile, commemorating all the eventful years of my life (21 till nw) n facts. Some of those i know, would either be snubbed at by sayin-- its better said than done...or i hope will be smiled upon and understood. Here goes...  

** You always have a choice...wherever, whenever, however, whichever the situation.

** People always come into your life, for 'a reason' ;' a season' and  

     'a lifetime'...  when you know which it is..u know exactly what to do... :)  

** For those who dont believe in luck,or worse, are cynical about it....havin observed, 

      LUCK only lands you opportunities. What you do with those...is entirely your CHOICE.  

** Nothing is ever__"ever" achieved without hard work and dollops of Faith.  

** The hardest part in our fight en route to achieve something are the 2 Bs. Beginning and Belief.

     Half the battle is won, when you Begin. 

     The other half...when you Believe. 

** There are no free lunches in the world. :) 

** Love is not love, Which alters when it alteration finds, Or bends with the remover to remove.                       (Shakespeare)

** Ppl who think you dnt always get wat u wnat in life r....sry bout dat....LOSERS.

** Be an individual. Remain one.

** Have faith. It may not really move mountains. But it can surely build bridges :)

** Last but not the least...tuf 2 do bt d best to do....

   LET GO___ The pain is immensely gratifying.

Adios.

Pratyusha.

'Its high time'.....I said to myself.

Its high time I write another post...lol...

or else my precious blog ends up lookin defunct...and the owner---well---dead...****ohhhhh****hehehe*** 

Jokes apart...

Its about time I know what i should be doing...and where I should be moving in life..

The problem is..I have realised...but m still solutionless.

Out of the entire chaos reigining my life right now...I can just marvel at how fcukingly intelligent God is, to have put all this schemingly in my platter....(no m not blaming him. in fact I never have).

I just dont know how to get away.....

Todays being Easter. A symbolic of happiness and new beginnings, I only wish to be able to clean sweep these webs of confusion and confinement... and move towards a path of wisdom and reasoning...with a new improved, fresh, and pure journey of growth.

Adios

PRATYUSHA. (decorate those cuddly cutie bunnies ppl...Happy Easter's).

Finally...

The girl who seemed unbreakable- has broken.

The girl who seemed strong-  crumbled.

The girl who laughed it all off-  cried 

& the girl who never stopped trying finally gave up..

Adios.

PRATYUSHA.

Had read a very striking statement about 'strength'  sometime back [nik u hv n awesome collection dude!! ;) ] it goes 'strength, is nothing more than how well u hide the pain'. For some moments though i couldnt believe what i just came across. The statement was just about bang-on to the perception i have been holding abt 'feeling strong' for quite sometime now (ya it still continues)... 

          

         The more you let it seep inside you...the more the venom of fear spreads....n d more u feel CRIPPLED. 'Strength' to me is completely a self work. YOU do it. no one, but YOU..Ther can b nothing stronger in the world than self-will.... and nothing more safeguarding than self-realisation (i can put my bets on this).  

So the next time you feel lame n helpless......

    DO NOTHING. coz smtmes d only last resort one can succumb to, aftr evrtng fails,is sit back, put up ur legs n watch the drama unfold. All this with a smile. coz 'strength, is nothing more than hw well u hide d pain'. **wink wink**

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA.

You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie.... you ask them, "whats wrong?" n they say "Nothing."..... You accept this because its easier than digging for the truth..... people smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout...... they pretend like nothing is wrong because they dont want to face the truth... things aren't always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your angers and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. so when you want to cry, cry. when you want to scream, scream. dont hide behind fake smiles, its ok to NOT be alright.  :)

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA. :)

Its so easy to say "Move On". Its hip. Its IN. Its cool. Its so happening. Its safe. Its............. fake. Its anything but OK. 

To avoid being percieved hypocritical, I rather admit "i havent".  I never have. I always carry a baggage of my past. Truly. And I hve no regrets about it. At least it helps me have no illusions and keeps reminding of what i was, on my journey of, what i aspire to be. I am thus firmly grounded. But to understand the psyche of the "i-have-moved-on" sayers, its pretty intriguing. What have you moved on from?? from your gory past? your failures? your weaknesses? or have you moved on after "smothering someone's feelings"??? **hmmm**   

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA.

" If there’s any kind of magic in this world, it must be in the attempt of understanding someone, sharing something. I know, it’s almost impossible to succeed, but…who cares, really? The answer must be in the attempt."

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA. :)

Tomorrow is another day. And yet again I wake up hoping for someone up there to wave a magic wand and a miracle to happen. Yet again I redeem the faith I lose every last night, and begin to anticipate. Or should I say.......   expect **??!!** the best. 

                   As and when hours pass, I realize its just not happening... I wait for things to happen, For someone to say something I have long waited for. For someone to do something I have long imagined they would. Since in all this mayhem that surrounds my life at this moment, a lil bit of good surprise from unexpected quarters does bring a smile on your face and a moment of bliss... **pure MAGIC**

                           

But this is far from coming true. You walk down roads wandering with your thoughts in your own world...witha a blank face, for everyone around to wonder “what is she???”.... but...

I walk...have always done...

 

 Adios.

PRATYUSHA.

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I woke up one mornin,

With a dream in my eyes.

To gift you a day,

Splashed with drops of surprise.

Its d smile on your face,

That make dreams worth dreamin.

Its only for your smile,

I could stake all my livin'.

My ball of thoughts had begun to roll,

It had me all insane.

I dreamed upon 'em as i believed,

You too wished the same.

I rode along, oblivious-

To the fake life i thus ensued.

Till I dashed upon reality,

That sent my life askew.

There i was awaiting,

To start my life afresh with you.

Though u bring along a faith-breaker,

Pricking words is what you spew.

Nothingz left to say or share.

At shattered hopes i blankly stare.

I've taken pinches worse but,

The words u spoke I cud never bear.

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA.

FEAR

Green eyes dazzle on a murky face

Givin a luk u cant escape.

It holds u tight

Stares at you with widening eyes.

Is it a grip u cant get away from?

Or a prelude of the fear to come.

 

 

There isnt a monster outside of us

Waiting to get you hands on.

Or a forgotten curse,

U now think has dawned.

Sneak inside of u and u will find

A ray of hope and couarage divine.

Fear has a face…

A face you create,

A voice you speak.

It has a name you give...

Did u just call it FATE ?!!!

 

 

Fear is not offered for nothing...

And its not a mere feeling.

It’s a huge bargain

‘Tween security and sanity

What would u choose??

Quiver up and bog down

Or liven it up and let it loose...

 

Livin once is great excuse

Say it loud n kick dos blues...

Fly high and steer upwards.

Fear is nowhere

There's nothing to fear.

 

Get new wings and march on a voyage

Prick those thorns and party in darkness.

Quell all the ‘what-ifs’

And dispel all the doubts.

Life is not a destination

But a matter of where-abouts...

P.S:- Please read it carefully. And i mean C-A-R-E-F-U-L-LY. To understand it.

ADIOS

PRATYUSHA.

' 09

Aah…. So! A new year… AGAIN?!?!  I was as it is facing a tough time getting used to the tortures of what the last year had been throwin up right on my face… without a wee bit sympathy and now I am expected to face another year???!!  I right now feel and also get the picture of how can I summarize my present tactics of existing. I am running. Running where? In a tunnel. Running why? Because I should. or else I falter. Running from what? From reality.

          Yes. The past entire year I was running from something which was ACTUALLY ALL THERE AROUND ME…IN REALITY…I was running towards the end of the dark tunnel which shone so brightly to me….I wanted to have that escape route. PRONTO. 

          Little did i know...its all of no use... The year end had some very trying times for me. I realized it was not what i had wished for. Nor did it turn out to be what i had dreamt of. aaha...but then this was reality. Dreams have no place here. How lame of me! Someone had  recently ( last year to be precise) had made this very clear to me...That I cannot for long, turn a blind eye to all thats happening about me. I cannot turn my face away from "NOW" and turn it towards "WHAT IS NOT". What would i like to change about the past year? Honestly, nothing. All i would want, is an explanation as to why things happened the way they did. What hopes have i got from the coming year? None. Blunt. From under estimating myself,  to over estimating myself. From being restless for results, to being patient enough to sit back and see the drama unfold. From cursing people, to getting cursed. From being tired of explaining, to being happy to let my silence speak. I HAVE DONE IT ALL LAST YEAR.  And I could give my right eye to prove, taht the pattern this year too, would be the same. 

              I would like to believe I am not a pessimist ( though some peeps who know me wud beg to differ). Havin said in my last post of last year "evrything happens for the best " .  My only regret being the reasons SURFACE too late. So this year is gonna be another test for my patience. And i hope to rise back from ashes,  like the proverbial phoenix, to a point where i find reasons in everything that happens. Even a reason for--- why did i see KRAZZY 4, ONE, TWO, THREE and Jaane tu ya jaane watever..... :)

Have a rollercoaster year ahead.

LUV N LUCK..

PRATYUSHA.