Finally...

The girl who seemed unbreakable- has broken.

The girl who seemed strong-  crumbled.

The girl who laughed it all off-  cried 

& the girl who never stopped trying finally gave up..

Adios.

PRATYUSHA.

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I woke up one mornin,

With a dream in my eyes.

To gift you a day,

Splashed with drops of surprise.

Its d smile on your face,

That make dreams worth dreamin.

Its only for your smile,

I could stake all my livin'.

My ball of thoughts had begun to roll,

It had me all insane.

I dreamed upon 'em as i believed,

You too wished the same.

I rode along, oblivious-

To the fake life i thus ensued.

Till I dashed upon reality,

That sent my life askew.

There i was awaiting,

To start my life afresh with you.

Though u bring along a faith-breaker,

Pricking words is what you spew.

Nothingz left to say or share.

At shattered hopes i blankly stare.

I've taken pinches worse but,

The words u spoke I cud never bear.

ADIOS.

PRATYUSHA.

' 09

Aah…. So! A new year… AGAIN?!?!  I was as it is facing a tough time getting used to the tortures of what the last year had been throwin up right on my face… without a wee bit sympathy and now I am expected to face another year???!!  I right now feel and also get the picture of how can I summarize my present tactics of existing. I am running. Running where? In a tunnel. Running why? Because I should. or else I falter. Running from what? From reality.

          Yes. The past entire year I was running from something which was ACTUALLY ALL THERE AROUND ME…IN REALITY…I was running towards the end of the dark tunnel which shone so brightly to me….I wanted to have that escape route. PRONTO. 

          Little did i know...its all of no use... The year end had some very trying times for me. I realized it was not what i had wished for. Nor did it turn out to be what i had dreamt of. aaha...but then this was reality. Dreams have no place here. How lame of me! Someone had  recently ( last year to be precise) had made this very clear to me...That I cannot for long, turn a blind eye to all thats happening about me. I cannot turn my face away from "NOW" and turn it towards "WHAT IS NOT". What would i like to change about the past year? Honestly, nothing. All i would want, is an explanation as to why things happened the way they did. What hopes have i got from the coming year? None. Blunt. From under estimating myself,  to over estimating myself. From being restless for results, to being patient enough to sit back and see the drama unfold. From cursing people, to getting cursed. From being tired of explaining, to being happy to let my silence speak. I HAVE DONE IT ALL LAST YEAR.  And I could give my right eye to prove, taht the pattern this year too, would be the same. 

              I would like to believe I am not a pessimist ( though some peeps who know me wud beg to differ). Havin said in my last post of last year "evrything happens for the best " .  My only regret being the reasons SURFACE too late. So this year is gonna be another test for my patience. And i hope to rise back from ashes,  like the proverbial phoenix, to a point where i find reasons in everything that happens. Even a reason for--- why did i see KRAZZY 4, ONE, TWO, THREE and Jaane tu ya jaane watever..... :)

Have a rollercoaster year ahead.

LUV N LUCK..

PRATYUSHA.

Breaking free

There are times when silence becomes golden,

There are times when we yearn for moments stolen.

There are times v blve evry word is true

There are times we wish v never fall through.

 

For all the tears now dried.

For all the tears v ever cried.

For all the things that remained unsaid

Those were the times…my heard bled.

 

Strange are the ways of r heart.

It connects us tho v’re apart.

U hurt a heart with much disdain.

And it wont dare to love you again.

These are the times our hearts refrain.

 

From all the wilderness of our mind.

And all the sorrows thus entwined.

We find a voice in a soothing sway…

Coercing us to hereby stay…

Amidst all the fading strength and hope,

We hear a push to help us cope..

 

I wish to smilingly go along,

Without a sense of right or wrong,

Trudge on d way humming a song,

For these are the times…I craved all life long.

 

ADIOS...

PRATYUSHA

Grain by grain,

Slip the sands of time.

Here I stand…

In the hands of turbulence…sublime.

 

Am a mere spectator.

As I watch things slip by..

See people biddin me good-bye.

Coz for all we care…

Is to move away from despair.

 

Trivial though it may seem..

Its tough to live a dream

When d dreams u wished for to come true.

But cried hard to bid adieu.

 

I stare endlessly..

Stretch out for a breath of fresh air.

And rule out doings unfair.

 

I see a world of new beginnings

Words of new meanings.

And I see no more

Coz it’s a world we wish to see.

And it’s door..HAS OPENED FOR ME.

here i go again...

There's something going wrong...drastically wrong.A game of fate,or a game played by someone.Nonetheless, its me at the recieving end of it all....

At this point of time in my life....THIS VERY MOMENT......makes me feel vulnerable....naked, exposed...looks lik m being dragged n pushed in d middle if a mob....all tryin to get at my neck.

Things which felt so reassuring at all the dull moments...hve taken a turnin...n how!! they seem bleak,torturous and scary! Its lik...im in a crowd...baskin in some of d most pleasurable company of people and probably hvin a marvellous time....n then.........................................POOF!!! 

knock knock...a reality check ma'am.Here it goes again....d same ol rigmarole of drama...that surge of emotions......that whirlpool of exhaustion suckin al ur comfort frm within....

Gotta give this time a break.this phase its freedom.To let it BE.Sometimes thats what is needed..The permission to let u hve ur own...guess even my life needs it now...a new lease of life!

Will be back with a bang...without doubts...hope that day's not too distant.

Adios..

PRATYUSHA.

Someplace

I saw that place.

Those sprawling landscapes.

Birds fluttering past.

For a lifetime they last.

You heard ‘em too?

Are they too good to be true?

It’s a place I wish to share with you.

Take me there too.

 

That morning mist,

My cheeks they kiss.

That seductive breeze,

Those buzzing bees,

Under the vast blue,

Take me there too.

 

I saw the clouds drawing a thing,

On the wet canvas.

It was a sight to see.

The raindrops singing gleefully.

I wish to feel the dew,

Take me there too.

 

‘Tis somewhere that I wish to go.

Lost in the woods.

And nothing to woe.

Cry…but none to see.

Dance...but  none to heed.

None...except me n you,

Please Take me there too.

-----Pratyusha.

 

For the love to be reborn.

No one clearly remembers

When did it all start.

For me to forget is too hard.

Nor does one bother when

now dat it has come to an end.

But the scars remain for all they care.

So does the pain...leavin me in despair.

You did what you had to.

You took me for a ride.

But God forbid if u have to.

Go through wht I hide.

Never did u feel,

Never did u know,

My dreams u had broken,

Had left me pretty low.

You broke me up.

You left me dry,

Its strange that I still try..

To have you in my arms.

To have you in my life.

But now that ur gone.

All I can wish..Is for the love to be reborn!